One of the reasons why I stopped listening to love songs or just about any songs with words is because it would remind me of her, my feelings for her and what happened. Have you ever notice when you’re going through emotional shit, in my case a breakup, the songs on the radio seem to talk directly to you. Like the DJ know exactly what song to play at that exact moment, and that song seem to describe exactly what you’re going through or what happened. Everytime I’m in a taxi going downtown or if I’m walking and a car pass by with its radio up, its always a love song or a song that remind me of the shit I’m going through. The lyrics of whatever song is playing is what I’m feeling right at this moment, its crazy. It makes the situation that worst and me feel more sad. The only kind of music I listen to know is classical, instrumental of sounds of nature music. Something to clear my head and relax me, take my mind off of her. I refuse to play any other type of music now and when I hear any other kind I do my best to tune it out or leave the area, it sounds crazy I know but I know if I listen to lyrical music the pain will only feel worst and I’m already in enough pain. I love R&B music but I’m done with it, at least for awhile, a long while…
On another note, no pun, intented, after nine days without food I finally ate and most of the time I had to force myself, now I kind of feel like I want to throw up. I know I needed to eat something but ultimately I forced myself. My friend say its normal to have a lost of appetite and its are of the griefing process and it will pass. Either way, I don't have the urge to eat anymore. I doubt I’ll eat anything for the rest of the day, still don’t have an appetite even after I ate. The food itself was okay and I can already feel my body processing it. But, I’m not going to force myself to eat again, If I don’t have an appetite its just that, I won’t eat. I don't feel for food anymore… DAMN! The shit that love put you through is a BITCH!
One of the reasons why I stopped listening to love songs or just about any songs with words is because it would remind me of her, my feelings for her and what happened. Have you ever notice when you’re going through emotional shit, in my case a breakup, the songs on the radio seem to talk directly to you. Like the DJ know exactly what song to play at that exact moment, and that song seem to describe exactly what you’re going through or what happened. Everytime I’m in a taxi going downtown or if I’m walking and a car pass by with its radio up, its always a love song or a song that remind me of the shit I’m going through. The lyrics of whatever song is playing is what I’m feeling right at this moment, its crazy. It makes the situation that worst and me feel more sad. The only kind of music I listen to know is classical, instrumental of sounds of nature music. Something to clear my head and relax me, take my mind off of her. I refuse to play any other type of music now and when I hear any other kind I do my best to tune it out or leave the area, it sounds crazy I know but I know if I listen to lyrical music the pain will only feel worst and I’m already in enough pain. I love R&B music but I’m done with it, at least for awhile, a long while…
On another note, no pun, intented, after nine days without food I finally ate and most of the time I had to force myself, now I kind of feel like I want to throw up. I know I needed to eat something but ultimately I forced myself. My friend say its normal to have a lost of appetite and its are of the griefing process and it will pass. Either way, I don't have the urge to eat anymore. I doubt I’ll eat anything for the rest of the day, still don’t have an appetite even after I ate. The food itself was okay and I can already feel my body processing it. But, I’m not going to force myself to eat again, If I don’t have an appetite its just that, I won’t eat. I don't feel for food anymore… DAMN! The shit that love put you through is a BITCH!
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